The shift in paradigm and the use of color are connected for me in the unconscious. I remember a color that triggers a feeling or I remember a feeling that triggers a color.
In this watercolor the structures were added as a reason or a place in which to insert color. It is an early summer painting of a scene that did not exist until it was constructed on canvas. There is no town that looks like this and there is no colors that exist in exactly this combination. The purpose of the painting was not artistic. The purpose of any of my work from psychoanalysis to art is meditative.
It is not out of humility that I say I do not find this painting beautiful, I found the process of creating this painting to be beautiful.
Lately I have been arriving at a new conclusion. Joy is not what we are waking towards. It is beauty that speak to us in a way that never betrays us. What I find beautiful, I can not be dissuaded from. I know beauty when I see it and I can not be talked out of what I find beautiful. In a way it is beauty that leads to truth for me. My aesthetics are the most informed aspect of my character, and I never set out to have that be the case. It happened along the way.